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My 2012 list update.

End of the third month of 2012, and I’ve been doing pretty good at knocking things off my list. Here is an update, not so much for you guys, but as a way to keep me motivated. 

Weight: lost 5 pounds. It may not seem like much, but I feel really good about it. I was able to change a lot of my bad eating habits, which was the hardest part, considering I work with food all day. When I lose ten, I want a new tattoo to motivate me. 

Money: well, that was a funny new years resolution. I too quickly realized that life is much more expensive when you are on your own. With the radiator on my car giving out, new bills that I had to take of myself, debt from school, and a very low income, saving as much as I wanted did not work out. The best I have done is become much more conscious of my spending. It helps to have a frugal boyfriend too :). 

Meals: I’ve made two meals so far, and they were quite delicious. I can now bake and fry fish, specifically, tilapia, and mahi mahi. Both involved a home made salad, asparagus, and the tilapia rocked a side of red over roasted potatoes. I already knew how to make the asparagus and red potatoes, but it helps to build off of what you know. 

Shows: this is by far the easiest resolution, or at least the one I enjoy the most. These are the shows I’ve seen thus far:

Super Water Sympathy

Theophilus London

Bright Light Social Hour

Yelle

Cults

Now, Now

The Naked and FAmous

Marmalakes

SXSW incorporated a lot of shows, but many of them were people I had already seen. Upcoming shows: Childish Gambino on April 5th. Boo-yah

Knitting: haven’t even started. I’ll get to it. 

Books: I’m a little slow on this one, but I have read Brave New World and Fear and Loathing. Both were thoroughly enjoyed. 

Trips: New Zealand and Colorado so far. April is full of little trips on the weekends. Fist weekend is Dallas to visit John Gonzalez, and see the new H&M. SEcond weekend is home for my little brothers 18th. Third weekend is Corpus. Fourth weekend is a camping trip. April is going to be so blissful. 

And there you have it. Still motivated. Still loving life. 

I feel Pathetic but…

I need constant little affirmation that someone is into me. The feeling that they just want to touch me because they’re thinking about me. A brush across my hips as they walk by, a play with my hair. It doesn’t even need to always be sexual. It just needs to remind me that I am wanted and thought about. 

Well here we go…

So I naturally have to say yes to every experience. I say yes to going to Colorado with a boy I barely started dating. I say yes to driving to San Antonio a day earlier than my flight leaves. I say yes to going out to a weird as club where gay punks dance to Morrissey. And what do I get? A day spent outside a Whataburger waiting for a tow truck because my car has overheated. A day spent in an auto shop where all my money got sucked out of me. 

I just need to think about the positive things. I have a boy who likes me. I am going on my second trip out of twenty this year. I don’t have to pay for much on this trip. My car needed a check up, might as well be on a day that I have off. And my tow truck driver was Turkish. 

It’s going to get better. Shut up Anxiety. It’s going to be good. 

My mother’s best advice to me has always been, “Nothing is permanent. Good times come and go, but that also means that the bad times will go as well.” 

I just have to keep my eye on the snowy vacation prize.